Busy day. I talked to him today and he received the test Tue and sent it back the same day. I'm not sure what I am experiencing from all of this. But I suddenly got very sad today and cried for a while. It's like I went back in time for a while and relived some emotions.

A broken heart is a strange thing...I don't think I've ever recovered. A part of it has been missing and I've pretended all these years that it's been whole and it's like I just realized it today and cried about it.

I think we should know something by next week. I told my daughter, "Ya know...regardless of these results, ya know you never lacked a thing, you've had more love than most people that had two natural parents" she responded..."Yes, I know I have"

I also told her..."Other than just simply knowing...there may not be any other significant difference in your life"....She agreed to know that...that's a part of me, protecting her and not wanting her to fantasize about all of it, I just don't want her to be hurt.