In this time of waiting...I think about and remember things that I felt years ago. This at times is difficult...but at the same time is enlightening. It's like I am beginning to see things in a different light. A light that is revealing itself to me slowly. I think some lights are only revealed after certain steps are taken...certain lights are turned on so that you can see the dark areas a little more clearer.

I have to say that my daughter's perspective of all of this is focused. She's not one to look back and blame. She could do that, she could ask me why didn't you do this...why didn't you do that...but she doesn't. Instead, she is understanding and sees it all as something that happened for a reason. She believes it was in her path, to not have known her biological father. She too believes there are no accidents...that the life we live is mapped out... so that we may learn. I am fortunate to have a such a wise child. I am proud of her.